Tuesday, February 27, 2007
now i know.
beb, remember how i tell you all the time that i hate you.. so much? well that's because i have issues. this needs to be sorted out. or else i'll drive myself mad when you are away again. this stupid addiction.. it's giving me a headache. you are so lucky you are not addicted to me.
Monday, February 19, 2007
did you see the beautiful crescent tonite?
sometimes, you cant think too low about yourself. stressing out is very unnecessary. because actually, you were never the only one who feel scared. everybody does. all those people who looks as if they know everything was once like you when they first started. sitting in their seat in front of their laptop freakin out.so, yea..
Saturday, February 17, 2007
stressing out is another way to get skinnier.
currently listening: ape on the roof - grounderthe thing about being stressed out is that we always try our best to fix the situation. repair it. amend it. whatever. we are intelligent species. we should be able to control ourselves, our emotion, everything.
i like to be in control. but im still having trouble controlling my emotion. im one who magnifies every tiny thing. so it's not that simple, you see..
and whenever i started stressing out about something, i'll find something that can make me forget about it. funny how that's where the problem starts. i've always tried too hard. and when things didnt go as planned, that's when i started to crack.
help me?
Thursday, February 08, 2007
i want to be heroes
i want to live life fully, without any stress and worry.i want to be in control of everything.
i want to have a grip of every aspect of my life.
i want to fly.
yeah.. so does everyone else. dream on.
more or less 3 to 4 months ago, i watched something on tv. i have forgotten what it was. i think it was a concert or a golden globe or something im not sure. but while im watching, a thought come across my mind. i said to myself; i want to be part of something big. even if it is just a little part of it. i couldnt believe it now i have placed myself in such situation.
but the thing with being part of something big is you need to be a lot more independent than what you are now. because it's massive, there is no manager who can speak to you every minute you want. you are not being taken care like a child anymore. people see you as professionals. and professionals can do everything themselves, even if they didnt have any idea what to do they'll manage to pretend they know what they're doing.
see, this kinda thing is very scary. and im very scared of what's gonna happen today. i crave for more coffee and sugar now. im nervous as hell.