Thursday, February 08, 2007

i want to be heroes

i want to live life fully, without any stress and worry.
i want to be in control of everything.
i want to have a grip of every aspect of my life.
i want to fly.
yeah.. so does everyone else. dream on.

more or less 3 to 4 months ago, i watched something on tv. i have forgotten what it was. i think it was a concert or a golden globe or something im not sure. but while im watching, a thought come across my mind. i said to myself; i want to be part of something big. even if it is just a little part of it. i couldnt believe it now i have placed myself in such situation.

but the thing with being part of something big is you need to be a lot more independent than what you are now. because it's massive, there is no manager who can speak to you every minute you want. you are not being taken care like a child anymore. people see you as professionals. and professionals can do everything themselves, even if they didnt have any idea what to do they'll manage to pretend they know what they're doing.

see, this kinda thing is very scary. and im very scared of what's gonna happen today. i crave for more coffee and sugar now. im nervous as hell.

Posted by cabina. @ 6:59 AM